Moonlit Jazz

wake up
Originally uploaded by walelia.

morning in black and white

redemption denied
forgiveness out of reach
hope merely a dream
a pleading for peace
surrendering the soul
giving up the sorrows
brings nothing to the whole
not light upon tomorrow
so fall deeper into darkness
lose all thoughts of power
sink further into despair
shrink down and cower

ahhhhh
Originally uploaded by walelia.

nice day

life has gone on
time pushes forward
the minutes marching
the weeks winding
the seasons swaying
always onward
but just for this moment
this sweet
this bitter
this eternal moment
let me remember you
the way my heart would race
the way my imagination flew
the way my cheeks blushed
the way I swooned for you
let me remember those days
so very few
mere moments at best
so vivid in my memories
easy to spring from rest
let me cry a little
let me smile even more
let me glimpse your heaven
let me hold this evermore…

Has it really been so long? Five years. Five years ago I was on my way to Arizona, numb with the news of Kevin Smith’s death. He was gone and I was heading for the place of his last convention appearance. How strange was that?

And always at this time, I remember how lucky I was to have met him and how admiring him led me to such wonderful friends. I wish I could have told him how much he meant to me in that way. But maybe he knows, in his own way. 🙂

So maybe just a glisten of a tear in my eye, but always a smile when I remember Kev…

oh zito you’re breakin’ my heart
Originally uploaded by walelia.

duuuuuude

start the spark
let it glimmer in the wink
drop the hint
let it flavor the words
tease the heart
let it quiver in wonder
when it blooms
when it burns
when it conquers
a little love goes a long way

So, did everyone have a good Valentine’s Day? Freakin’ greeting card holidays. LOL!

My day began thusly: I was a tangled web of nerves on the way to work. I tried not to feel so anxious. But how could I not when in my stuff was a letter addressed to the principal announcing my resignation? And so I felt super nervous. And it was making my head hurt. 😛

A bit around 8am, I went to the front office and gave the letter to the office manager. First reaction was like an “oh no!” and then reluctant acceptance. Overall, the response to my notice has been a mix of sadness and happiness. Everyone has just been so wonderful to me and I will be sorry to leave. But I must do what is best for us and this is it. I will miss everyone. Alas!

And today was Valentine’s Day. So chocolates arrived at different points of the day. 😛

I left the chocolates at work though. Aaaack!

Even got a rose! From Cheer. Awww. 🙂

i should buy this…
Originally uploaded by walelia.

so true