Moonlit Jazz

We are at the halfway point of the vacation. Can I just say how wonderful it is to be on vacation? I love being LAZY! But I must clean up this room. It’s driving me crazy. Aaack! 😛

The gos going around is that The Lone Gunmen has been cancelled and Dark Angel will be moved to Friday nights. The kiss of death for the show? And what’s up with cancelling The Lone Gunmen?! So not fair! I’m sad. I liked that show VERY MUCH. That Jimmy Bond fellow was so cute! Well, should I take comfort in the fact that The X-Files will go on?…

Where has my creativity gone? Has my Muse permanently flown from me? Where are my stories?

My A’s won! That makes 6 games in a row, a perfect homestand, and one game under .500. And that’s all good. 🙂 I can be such an A’s chick, eh? LOL!

It’s been two weeks since my Southern California trip. I miss the moments! Meeting Greg again, meeting Scott for the first time, spending time with my good friend Lisa. It was a great weekend. And I totally miss it…

Do I push aside the unpleasant things to a point of ignorant bliss? Am I oblivious to things I should be seeing? Should I care about things that potential affect me? Or am I unaffected? Does that make me less than caring, cold to a point of hard ice, indifferent? Am I less of person by not taking sides, by seeing all points, by feeling untouched? Does of this make sense? Why do I speak of abstracts when something specific is on my mind?

I distance myself, I merely listen. But I have thoughts on all of it. Yet for all the rational points I make, I feel nothing. Or do I? Certainly it is not anger. Disappointment, I think. I am bothered only because someone unrelated to the incident is upset. I feel more for that person than I do for the parties concerned.

I only wish she showed her strength. I hate above all things to pity and so I resist pitying her. Another point of anger? Is attention she seeks? Does she really want to know the truth? Or is it a ploy to be center, to have drama?

Do I condone his possible actions? No, I do not. I only wish I knew nothing of this. It’s upsetting and unsettling and altogether odd.

Might I still harbor resentment? Maybe. I should let it go, I know. I thought I had…

Strange dreams. I love having strange dreams. Sometimes I know exactly why I dream something. Then other times, I wonder where the hell the dream came from.

I had a disturbing dream that night after the convention. I dreamt that someone died and I was upset about it. I didn’t know the person, but I was still grieved for him. It was sad! And I don’t know why I dreamt it. I should have been reliving the day again in my dreams. I wouldn’t have minded that. 🙂

The other night, I dreamt about Scott Levy. We were on a trip going somewhere. Were we on a train? I think I dreamt that because of Bobby’s email.

And then just a couple of nights ago, I dreamt of going to the movies with Jason Giambi. Weird! Perhaps that’s because my soon-to-be brother-in-law refers to Jason as “Val’s boyfriend” everytime he sees him on tv. LOL! Yes, one of those funny things my sister told me last week.

I’m tired now. I wonder what my dreams will have in store for me tonight…

You know, I’m going start getting used to emails from cute guys. LOL!

Scott Levy emailed me! I think this means he’s read my convention report. I still need to reply to his email. I think I’ll save that for the morning. I should sleep on it, eh?

I am really quite used to this whole vacation thing. I want to always be on vacation! Of course, money for doing nothing would be nice too. Ahh, laziness. LOL!

Why is it when I get in front of the computer, my mind goes blank? Gads!

More convention thoughts…

Bobby Lento emailed me! How cool. 🙂 He was very nice, just as he was when we met. His email made me giggle a little. I think it’s because he mentioned Scott Levy:

Scott Levy is a dear friend of mine and the pictures you had taken with him were very good and I’m sure Scott is very proud to have taken them with you.

That’s totally sweet. Yikes, I wonder if Scott’s going to get around to reading my report. 😛

A good thing about the convention is that it got me off my soulDecision trip for a bit. Not that being on my soulDecision trip was a bad thing, but I think I got more out of the convention. If that makes any sense.

And I’ve got a secret no one can know. LOL! Secrets are cool. 🙂

My convention report is up (Pasadena Xena Convention 2001) and I am still thrilled by the whole thing.

Greg was so WONDERFUL! I couldn’t believe that he remembered me! (Although a little part of me says, hey, you have the website on him and he knows it, why shouldn’t he remember you?) Okay, it’s not just that he remembered me. It’s that he greeted me like an old friend. How cool is that?

I can’t believe it was a little over a week ago…

I had the best time at the Xena convention in Pasadena this past weekend. Was it a week ago that I was preparing for my Southern California trip? Gosh, time flies…

My personal highlights? I’ll get to those soon enough…